We all have dreams and aspirations, right?
We all desire something that would make our lives richer, deeper, and give us a feeling of accomplishment. I am standing on the precipice of such desire and I am not sure to jump or back away.
I know everybody that would read this would scream, "JUMP, JUMP, YOU CAN DO IT!"
But the fear of failure is standing in my way. The fear of people knowing I couldn't do it keeps me frozen.
It would be so much easier if more people were more supportive.
Monday, July 12, 2010
Thursday, July 8, 2010
perfection.....
I had someone refer to me as being "perfect" and then I saw someone near-by roll their eyes in disgust after that comment.
It made me feel uncomfortable. The person making the statement never noticed the other
Persons reaction, but I did. In fact I could have crawled into a little hole right then and
Would have been ok with it. I didn't and couldn't have if I wanted. The re I was hearing all
These words of praise in front of a bunch of strangers.
Some would argue that I have a low self-esteem if I cannot take a compliment. This was not a
Compliment. This was gushing over-rated undeserved praise. I had done nothing to warrant
Such praise. I was just being me. That was all. I was being a decent human doing what
Felt right for me. I was not following the crowd to fit in and was not being someone I am not
To score brownie points. Yet some how doing the right thing seems so rare these days
My values stood out and caused one person to think I was a pious twit and another to
Swoon such traits. I really wish people would get to know me better before slobbering
Praises about so much. I am not perfect. I am far from it. Neither have I ever pretended to be.
I do have values, morals, and expect decent behavior from folks but I am in no way a
Pious saint and divine angel. It's more like pointy horns and sharp tallons.
It made me feel uncomfortable. The person making the statement never noticed the other
Persons reaction, but I did. In fact I could have crawled into a little hole right then and
Would have been ok with it. I didn't and couldn't have if I wanted. The re I was hearing all
These words of praise in front of a bunch of strangers.
Some would argue that I have a low self-esteem if I cannot take a compliment. This was not a
Compliment. This was gushing over-rated undeserved praise. I had done nothing to warrant
Such praise. I was just being me. That was all. I was being a decent human doing what
Felt right for me. I was not following the crowd to fit in and was not being someone I am not
To score brownie points. Yet some how doing the right thing seems so rare these days
My values stood out and caused one person to think I was a pious twit and another to
Swoon such traits. I really wish people would get to know me better before slobbering
Praises about so much. I am not perfect. I am far from it. Neither have I ever pretended to be.
I do have values, morals, and expect decent behavior from folks but I am in no way a
Pious saint and divine angel. It's more like pointy horns and sharp tallons.
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