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Loneliness Affects How The Brain Operates

Loneliness Affects How The Brain Operates

My oldest wearing the same shirt my dad is in the picture he is holding. That baby is me at 1 year.

Lonely time

Every night about now I feel incredibly lonely. I'm awake and needing someone to talk to and I have no one. The house is quiet and all are asleep except for me.

I use to stay up and chit chat with people online but now I really try to avoid people online now. I use to call people that I knew were awake but now I'd rather not bother with phones. I really would like to just hang out with people and fall asleep near them because we've talked the night away.

I miss those moments. I've had those moments with men and women. Non-sexual late night talks. Deep soul searching in stiff whispers.

I wonder how I can create that in my life again? It was always a happy time. It came around out of happiness too.

I think it is time to be clear about my wants.

Lost in thought, time, and space. Where I'm at I don't know. I wonder far and wide. My soul sweeps across the land. I find no comfort in the world of man. Metal cars, stone monuments, and glass houses. I cherish the kingdom that suits me best; wilderness.

The purpose is lost and forgotten. We only exist  for a short time. Birth and death it cycles no matter of you like it or not. Time doesn't wait for you. Time rushes by leaving you cold and confused and you hair tousled.

What is my purpose? My ultimate goal? My path to journey on? Will I have guardians, helpers, and fellow travelers or am I on a solitary mission?

I have the poem flapping around in my brain wailing in pitifully unconfident moans, "a road less traveled."