I have taken a break from writing. I took a break from many things, in fact. I have been thinking, reflecting, and going over things in my mind. I have been very introverted and quite the hermit. At times I am very selfish and other times I am super lenient, think door mat. I have yet find the perfect balance between the two. This is where I am at.
I have been re-examining my spiritual life during this period. Yoga, meditating, chanting OM, breathing, reading, watching and listening to different "gurus." I've started reading the Gospels that the "Church" left out of the Bible. I have been learning the political side to Jesus as well. I am still against organized religion and I am still certain Christians, Muslims, Hindus, Jews, and all the others have it all wrong.
I am not going to get into the nitty gritty details but I do think we have all been lead astray with the organized religion and lost something very important along the way with all the stories, parables, mythology, wording, translations, and rules about what God is and what Spirit is and what or how powerful we are.
I think we have missed the point along the way. We want to arrogantly put a face to "God" and call it male or female (Goddess), we want to put evilness and purity on "it". Make up rules, make up stories, then we discount others rules and stories because ours is better. We fight, maim, and destroy peoples free will, freedom, and desires to push our will onto them. We do this all in the name of the holy spirit of our religion.
What I get from meditation, reading, and learning is this; we have no fucking idea how it all works!
Here we are on the cusp of 2012 and we are all scared of the future because of stories. We are afraid of global warming, Jesus coming, Allah is mad, Krishna is going to make the world new again, the government is doing us in, it's karma, and the Mayans knew this was all going to happen because they were aliens. Meanwhile we believe it all and we are so distressed we can't function mindfully.
So busy following dogma, rules, and speculation and not following the heart. Not listening to within. Not being still and letting the answer come forth in calm wisdom. People do not truly trust or truly believe or they wouldn't need these other things; religions, dogma, and stories. They would feel truly free if they were able to realize that "God" is so much more than our small minds can grasp. The Energy, the UniverseS, this is all so much more than Jesus's Father! So much bigger and grander and far more expansive. We miss the fact that we too are energy and you cannot kill energy and energy does not die. Energy transforms! Once we accept this and realize we are powerful beings and can learn how to tap that energy and transform., I am sure our lives on this planet will be completely different.
We need to shake our fear of the unknown and instead grasp our arms around it an hold on tight and ride the wave. Change happens and change is good. Besides, it is going to happen if you like it or not, might as well change your attitude and accept it.
Today I accept change and know it is good and for my higher good. I accept that I do not know it all and I am not closed minded the possibility of learning more. I am filled with gratitude and love and enjoy life as it is. I accept I am a powerful being and know I should use my power wisely with love and gratitude in my heart. I am ready to begin a wonderful new chapter in my life, a gift from my mother given to me with her transformation. I feel good about this and know all is well. I am tapped into Source Energy and ready to get busy with my new fun, happy, and healthy life. I am happy and excited to share this positive fun energy with my kids and others. It's all about healing and loving! Join me :)
