My Father's Life, My Life

How does my Father's life affect mine?

How does his mother and father, before the time of his birth, affect my own life?

I sit and ponder this, I have a couple things that pop right up.........I was an alcoholic at one time. I cheated on my husband, I am flaky and irresponsible at times. I am strong willed. I am "tough" and can work hard.

I worry much to much. I tell people I am 'OK' when I am not, keeping up the image I am not 'hungry' like my grandmother would do.

Lie, sneaky, use busy-ness to keep the 'demons of war' at bay.

In many ways I can see how I hold onto their "shit" and baggage, even when they are no longer alive.
I have more to ponder about this one...................